Love and Acceptance

I have been thinking a lot about yesterday's post. I don't see myself the same as I used to and I realized many things. When I was growing up I thought many negative things about myself. I am not even sure why. I could try to blame Poison or the kids at school for making fun of me, but I am not sure that is the reason. I thought I was very ugly and worthless. Where did I get this view of myself? Where ever I got it, it stuck with me for years. But as I look back at my old photos I realized that it really wasn't as bad as I took it. I could have not let the haircuts bring me down because I really didn't look that bad. I still had many friends who cared about me. I love you Kari Worthington! You were a great friend and supporter through some of my hardest years and you always encouraged me. You were my angel. I look back now and I do not see an ugly little girl like I used to. It makes me emotional to realize this because everyday I put myself down in my thoughts and actions. By doing this to myself I caused others to treat me that way too.

Today I feel free! More free than ever! I wish I knew of my inner beauty all along. I wish this for every young girl and woman. To love oneself is what makes us beautiful. I had not love, therefore I couldn't love myself for who I was. Now I have love overflowing out of my heart and I love myself more than ever. Not that I think I am awesome or great, but I truly accept myself. I see many girls now who do not love themselves and their life becomes a product of that belief. We are all beautiful. We just look different and unique from one another. If you think someone is ugly that's just your opinion because someone out there thinks that person is beautiful. This new love I have found has allowed me to want to show others true love and friendship. It is what we all need after all. If we cannot love and accept ourselves how can we love others and accept them? Today I start anew. I know that people did and said horrible things to me in my past, but it no longer has hold over me. I will not hold it against them either because the real battle is within themselves.