When I was fifteen I became very religious. I attempted to follow every rule, including abstinence until marriage. I always wanted to get married so I figured I could wait it out until then. It would be worth the wait right? Plus, everyone said the first time would be amazing. I was doing pretty good until I turned 21. I started getting frustrated that I wasn't married yet because I kept getting into long term relationships. I was obviously very impatient. These guys would date me forever but always unsure about marriage. I started making deadlines for these guys. I wasn't going to wait forever and I wanted to meet the right guy that was just as ready
as I was. The first guy got three years, then I broke up with him. The second wasn't serious even after two years so I ended that too. When I became 21 I was frustrated and wanted to experience what everyone talked about. I became very impatient. I eventually gave it away to the guy I dated for two years. I did wait longer than most I know. Probably set a record...haha.
Everyone talked about sex like it was some amazing thing and worth saving. Well, let me tell you. I was so let down. Afterwards I was like, that's it? That's what I waited 21 years for? Nothing too special. Now looking back I don't think it's sex your waiting for. I think it's the right person you are waiting for because when I met my husband everything was different. We had the emotional and physical connection and that makes a world of difference. I beat myself up really hard for losing my virginity before I got married. Only 2 years later and I was married to my husband at the age of 23.
One thing is for sure, I am glad I at least tried to save myself because I don't have a lengthy sexual past and I avoided many STD's by limiting my chances of getting them. I guess when you meet the right person, it doesn't matter if it's already lost because everything is new. If you have a strong enough connection, it feels like you are each other's first.
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