A Love Like No Other

When a heart is filled to the brim it can only overflow out, touching everything and everyone that surrounds it. Today I write with  tears of gratitude for my heart is overwhelmed with love and gratitude. Growing up I felt sad, tortured and alone. I would think to myself, "Is this it?... Isn't there more to life?" I thought I would be suffering forever and then one day everything changed. It has continued to change one day at a time. It has taken years to bring me to where I am now. The life I once despised I now live joyfully! I did not think that was possible! As a child I longed for the love and support from others that I have now. It is such a precious gift! A gift I protect and appreciate every moment.

The love I have found in my mother has left me breathless. I lost her for so long. I didn't realize at the time what I was missing. I didn't know the bounds of her love as my mother and now I experience it everyday when I see her and talk to her. I wish I could give to her the world because she truly deserves it. She has been through hell and back. She has been abused and mistreated. She had her children ripped away from her, absence of her control. Financially she has had to work her health into the ground supporting herself, and my older brother. Her burden has been heavy for over half her life and to me, she deserves the biggest break of all. I wish all heavenly gifts to be showered upon her. With all this being said, her good efforts will never be forgotten. I know God will bless her immensely and repay the years for which she suffered. You can never judge a soul for we never know what they have truly gone through behind closed doors. But I have seen my mother rise from ashes and become as beautiful as the most beautiful heavenly flower. She has become one of the brighter stars in the sky.

Her suffering has purified her soul and prepared her for every blessing. I am just overwhelmed and so thankful she never gave up on me and my younger brother. When I was in foster care, they contacted her. She could've continued on with her life and never did a thing, but instead she grasped the opportunity for reconciliation. She went to court to see the hearing, not even thinking she would see me. It turned into a reuniting event. When I asked her for help she could've turned me away. We had been separated for 6 years anyways. She was used to not having me. But she didn't. She opened her arms to me and fought for me. She went through torturous court hearings and spent every penny on gaining sole custody of me and raised me until I graduated. She never once gave up on me. She showed me true love which is unconditional. I hope she receives 1 million times back what she has given to me. Now I know love. A love I never knew existed because I spent years without it.