What I Always took for Granted

Before I got pregnant with my daughter I was full of energy. I would do tons of physical activities with my husband and stay up all night having a good time. Everything seemed so easy and now I realize I took so many things for granted.

Ever since my daughter was born I have been declining in health and energy. I wonder to myself how this happened? I was in great health before. How did I end up with hypothyroidism caused by an autoimmune disease? Me? An autoimmune disease? Where did it come from? I know the easy answer is genetics since my mother also has hypothyroidism and hashimotos. But I never had the symptoms until after I gave birth. I wonder to myself often," What did I do wrong? Did I cause this on myself? Was my diet really that bad?" The lack of sleep I have been having is not making things better. Every single day I feel sick. My hands, wrists and knees hurt. I can't remember anything. I'm so exhausted I cannot keep up. I have dizzy spells where I cannot get up. If I do I feel like I'm going to fall over. 

I want to be the energetic person I used to be. I don't understand why this sudden illness has taken over my life. My daughter deserves a mother at her best and I'm barely hanging on. 

The only thing I can think of left to change is my sleeping habits, which will not improve until Leia sleeps better. I look fine and I try to keep it together. I try to be positive and know things can only be worse. But feeling sick everyday isn't living. 

I'm 25 years old. I'm not giving up yet.

So, to those who still have their health, energy and stamina, take care of your bodies. You never know how long you will be healthy for. If you want to be healthy in 20 years, start taking care of yourself today. My diet was the worst ever when I pregnant. I don't think my poor diet and sugar addiction helped my condition. Don't take for granted the little things. Those are the things that enrich our lives. Invest in your health, because you are worth it.